Fibres of Me.

every single cell in my body
looks beyond, seeing sad eyes
seeing pity on the faces of youth
preying that someday i'll be yours.
you are where i belong
you are home.

expecting the world to straighten up
become top notch in your mind
its too far to stray
its simply too much.

somehow i find a comfort in dreams
dreams are the reality of my norm.
they are what i think, yet im away from admitting.

stars in the distance remind me of how far i am
from your touch, from your eyes
i feel myself being pinched by reality
yet i ignore it and take another whiff
of life in the dark

no lover, no love
just pain and agony
i see myself hold on to the arrow in my heart
slowly pulling at it, wishing the pain would stop
letting it gradually pull out of my being.
just a kiss.

smoke fills my lungs once again
and i can see you
feel you
kiss you
touch you
but i fear this wish will never come true.

the arrow lies on the ground,covered by my feelings
followed by the green that i wish i had never tried.
it has taken me hostage
i become aware that its a false comfort
yet its a comfort at the moment, all the same
voids will be covered by my stupidity.

if only the dreams were true.